I was keeping myself composed. Not letting myself get emotional. Just keeping a stone cold heart until 8 pm. AND THEN I COME ON HERE AND ALL OF YOU PEOPLE BREAK MY COMPOSURE WITH YOUR HEART WRENCHING BUT BEAUTIFUL POSTS. SHATTER IT ACTUALLY. IM A MESS AGAIN. AND I HAVE ONLY 7 HOURS LEFT UNTIL I ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO ACCEPT THAT ONE TREE HILL IS OVER. I CANT DO THIS YOU GUYS. I JUST CANT. I DONT HAVE THE STRENGTH, WILLPOWER, OR ENERGY. AND I DEFINITELY DO NOT HAVE THE SELF CONTROL. I apologize for tonight after OTH airs. I am going to be the biggest mess of a human being you have ever seen and there will be many emotional posts. Until then, lets all get into a giant group hug and cry for the rest of our lives. I need you guys to help me keep it together.